Goodbye, Grandma!!. RIP

Hari ini, jam enam petang aku mendengar kabar, mbah- ibunya emakku- meninggal dunia. Inallilahi.... My mom sudah dua minggu di sana. Berharap berada disamping ibundanya disaat-saat akhir hidupnya. Yang membuatku sedih adalah dua tahun terakhir my mom selalu mengajakku untuk menyempatkan diri pulang ke desanya, sementara aku sibuk berlibur kesana kemari hingga my mom pernah bilang "Di ajak ke rumah mbah-nya gak pernah mau, eh malah bepergian terus." Hingga aawal tahun ini aku bertekad nanti bulan juni aku menyempatkan diri untuk kesana. Namun di awal Pebruari kami dikabari mbah sakit keras. My mom dan one of my sisters bergegas kesana sementara aku sibuk berkutat dengan pekerjaan sambil berharap mbah sembuh dan bulan juni nanti bisa bertemu dengan aku. Now, it's too late. Maapin aku ya mbah. I'm so sad. Pengen nangis.

Aku memang tak begitu dekat dengan mbah. Jarak antar pulau membuat aku hanya bisa bertemu dengan beliau satu atau dua tahun sekali saat masih duduk di bangku sekolah. Makin lama -kuliah dan kerja- makin sangat jarang bertemu. Namun cerita tentang Mbah selalu terdengar. Hebat. Mbah wanita hebat buat kami. Bayangkan, menghidupi delapan anaknya dengan profesi tukang urut dan beberapa anaknya sukses dan bersekolah diluar negeri. She's truly a super woman. 

Buat mbah, aku persembahkan lagu Craig David yang paling aku suka. Aku baca, Craig mempersembahkan lagu ini buat ibunya yang baru kehilangan sang ibu (neneknya Craig).

"Let Her Go"

You were her only girl
The most precious thing in her world
And I know it makes you cry
That you never got to say goodbye

You were just running out of time
To say what was on your mind
You never wanted her to leave
And mom I know it makes you grief

But why don't you celebrate the moments that you shared yeah
'Cuz now she's watching over you
It's true
And you know it too

[CHORUS]
Just let her go...
If you can't take the pain
Of a broken heart
Just let her go...

I know it feels as though hope is gone
And it hurts to think of moving on
But she'd never want to see you sad
Even though I know this hurts so bad

Devoted a life to you
And helped raise the grandson too
And now I hope you realize
That I'll always be there by your side

But why don't we celebrate the moments that we shared yeah
'Cuz now she's watching over you
It's true
And you know it too

[CHORUS]

You never knew how much she tried to fight it
And when you needed her around she'd be there
But you can reassure yourself that she's at ease
And that's why it's time for you
To...

[CHORUS]

If you can't take the pain
Of a broken heart
Just let her go... (just let her go, let her go)

If you can't take the pain
Of a broken heart
Just let her go... (just let her go, let her)

If you can't take the pain